Before the Sunrise

Majesty Sunrise began over a decade ago. It began with the teenager who spent many nights struggling with loneliness. I remember the tears from middle school and high school. I remember the pain. I remember all of it. I told very few people about this. In fact, you can count the people who knew about it on one hand and still have fingers left over. I kept it from almost everyone because I did not want anyone to feel sorry for me. Admittedly, this was very prideful, but I am glad I never sought help because I do not believe I would be who I am today if I did. While that seems crazy, allow me to explain.

The war with loneliness is exactly that; it is a war. It rages on constantly. From the moment your eyes wake up until the moment you fall asleep. Whether you are in a room full of family members or by yourself, that feeling is still pressing on your chest to the point to where you feel like you are suffocating. It eats at you day and night and there is never a moment to when it releases its grip on you.

You will have an opportunity to read all about this. I never held back from what it felt like when I wrote some of these poems. Some of my favorite poems detail the pain I experienced going back to those teenage years. Why are they favorites? They remind me of the work God has done. They remind me how He was faithful to me even when I was hurting the most.

I will be the first to admit that I pray for faith everyday and I will not pretend I have more faith than anyone else. My faith is still weak and pathetic compared to what it should be and there is even a poem on that. Nevertheless, even though this war has raged on for over a decade, I can tell you this: I trust God more today than I ever have before. One of the lies loneliness will influence you to believe is that you are all alone when, in fact, you are not. While I believed this lie more times than I want to count, I am glad to know that I was never alone. Did it feel that way? More times than I can count. Was it ever true? Not for a moment.

Even reminding myself of how faithful the Lord has been to me brings me to tears. I know that I can trust Him, which is what inspired me to write this:

Trust His Heart

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Even over this trial, You are sovereign
That is hard for me to grasp
Though I cannot understand why
Such a trial has been allowed to fester
I trust Your heart to afflict me

A trial that everyone knows
We all have experienced it at some point
Strikes the heart through the soul
The soul gripped with fear and trembling
An agonizing heartache that bleeds from within

Though you have allowed and ordained this
I want to do nothing but trust You
As I find the greatest peace in your sovereignty
That even with my bleeding heart
I know that I can trust Yours

I learned to trust God enough to afflict me. That was so hard for me and it will be until the day I die. But I know that I can trust God. He was faithful to me even though I gave Him every reason not to be. For the most part, throughout this war, it was just me and the Lord. And He brought me through it.

The ultimate purpose behind Majesty Sunrise is to glorify Christ and to show every person that you can trust Him, even in pain. I do not have all the answers and please do not look at me as an example of faith, as that is not my intention. If you look to anyone, look to Christ and keep your eyes fixed on Him (Hebrews 12:1-2).

While my war with loneliness is a huge theme, I talk more about the gospel and Christ than anything else. There are 9 different themes in total, one of which is a special story within 6 poems that I am very excited to share. I will leave the reader to interpret that story for themselves. They are in order, so you will not have to decipher which poems are a part of the story. You will also see how I came up with Majesty Sunrise and what it means. To date, “Majesty Sunrise” is my absolute favorite poem.

Knowing Christ has been the greatest joy of my life and I would not change a moment of anything because my afflictions have made me the man I am today. I am not the man I want to be, but I thank God every day that I am not the man I used to be. My prayer is that you will get a copy and see the Lord Jesus glorified through every work. It has never been about the money for me (I wish it were possible to give you all a copy!), only the opportunity to tell the world about Christ and the work He has done in me. I want this to help someone who fights the same war I do.

This will not be the last book I write, either. God willing, I have something else up my sleeve and I have already begun working on it. This will not be in poetic form either. It may be a few years, but I have every intention of making it happen. I pray the Lord’s will done with this, but if He allows it, I believe you will be blessed.

God bless you all.

Get ready for Majesty Sunrise.

At Last: When Adam Saw Eve

“Then the Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone; I will make him a helper suitable for him.” Out of the ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field and every bird of the sky, and brought them to the man to see what he would call them; and whatever the man called a living creature, that was its name. The man gave names to all the cattle, and to the birds of the sky, and to every beast of the field, but for Adam there was not found a helper suitable for him. So the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man, and he slept; then He took one of his ribs and closed up the flesh at that place. The Lord God fashioned into a woman the rib which He had taken from the man, and brought her to the man. The man said, “This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called woman, because she was taken out of man.”

-Genesis 2:18-23

 

The Lord God said: “It is not good for man to be alone…” Adam did not know it was not good to be alone, but God knew that it was not good for man to be alone. God brought Adam every beast of the field and every bird of the sky, but there was not a suitable helper found for Adam. And in one of the most incredible acts of God recorded in Scripture, God would fashion woman from man out of one of the man’s ribs. In his beautiful commentary on this account in Genesis, Matthew Henry says: “[Note] that the woman was made of a rib out of the side of Adam; not made out of his head to rule over him, nor out of his feet to be trampled upon by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected, and near his heart to be beloved.” This is how men should treat their wives. It should also be considered that our wives are also our sisters in Christ. They are daughters of the King and we will be held responsible for how we lead them, how we treat them, and how we love them.

Notice the beautiful reaction from Adam when he saw his wife, the woman that was taken from his side. This may be explained by man’s reaction when he sees his wife walking down the aisle toward him with her earthly father accompanying her. What Adam is saying here, in modern terms: “At last! After being presented all the living creatures on the earth, I have found a helper suitable for me! Here is my beloved!” The woman God brought Adam completely blew him away. Meditating on this for a few moments after reading it brought me to tears. God provided Adam something he did not even know he needed. I believe God does this in our lives many times over. In Matthew 6, Jesus tells us that God knows that we need the necessities of life and He freely and graciously provides these things, but He goes above and beyond in providing the things we do not know we need. While the command God gave Adam not to eat of the tree was a test of obedience, I also believe God wanted to show Adam that He did not need that knowledge of good and evil, that God Himself would be the One who would distinguish that for him. We see this concept repeated in Scripture numerous times where we see the faithfulness of the Lord towards those who put their trust in Him. Those who trust in the Lord shall not be shaken. See Psalm 16, 23, 27, 34, 62, 63, 91, Proverbs 3:5-6.

Also note, that God brought the woman to Adam. In the same way, if it so be His will, He will bring a husband/wife to you. Be patient. At the right moment, you too will have a reaction like this. God knew precisely how He would create the woman and that none of the animals would suffice for Adam’s helper. God truly did something extraordinary when He created the woman from the man’s rib. Actually signifying that these two become one flesh and that a husband and a wife become one flesh. God’s design of marriage in the garden between man and woman cannot be corrupted by the world. No matter our efforts, the decree of the Lord shall stand, that marriage is between one man and one woman.

Though for some it may not be the will of God for you to be married. While rare, celibacy is a gift from God as we see in 1 Corinthians 7. This gift allows for an advancement of the Gospel that may be more difficult for those who are married. Nevertheless, this does not absolve us all of our responsibility to preach the Gospel to all nations. Paul also notes that celibacy is not possible for all believers and he was not discouraging believers from marrying, but that there were advantages in ministry by remaining single.

We must also understand that if we do not find contentment in Christ outside of marriage, we will not find contentment in marriage. The reality is that Christ is enough. He always has been, and He always will be. Do we really believe Christ is enough? Do you really believe that Christ is enough? This is where we will determine how strong our faith is. How we answer this question will show us what is most important to us.

I will speak to my brothers now, both married and unmarried, as this will be pertinent to them. To my brothers who are married, understand what your wife is. She is a blessing to you. She is your helper. She is your best friend. She is/will be the mother of your children. What is yours is also now hers. Treat her the way she deserves to be treated. Treat her to date nights, flowers, or whatever brings her joy. Spontaneously go out of your way to do something special for her. Do not abuse or neglect her. Do not belittle her or talk down to her. At the end of the day, you must remember she is your sister in Christ too. Teach her the Word of the Lord and follow the commands given to you in Ephesians 5. To my brothers that are not married, keep your faith. Trust that God will bring you a wife, but even if He so chooses not to, remain faithful to Him and worship Him for all that He has done. Christ is more than enough for us, brothers. While it is not wrong to believe and have faith for a wife, trust that the Lord’s will shall be done in your life.  

God’s faithfulness exceeds the bounds of space. You will never find His faithfulness end. It is not good for man to be alone. What man did not even know that He needed, God brought to him. He fashioned her from the man and presented her to him. The man’s reaction was truly spectacular and again, is often the reaction every man has when he sees her on that special day. But even if God’s will be not for you to be married, you will still be a part of a marriage. As we, the church, shall be adjoined to our Husband, Christ.  This is the picture of marriage found in Scripture, as man and woman are to be brought together, so shall the church and Christ be brought together. This day is one I long for. Until that day, may we keep the faith and wait for our Husband to return for us.

The Calm After the Storm

| “After a storm comes a calm.” -Matthew Henry |

             Some time ago, I stumbled upon this quote from Matthew Henry. While he states nothing here that we are unaware of, what he speaks of is something we need to ponder more. The first thing we all notice is the storm. Quite frankly, it is impossible not to notice a storm when it comes through our lives. With violence and chaos, the storm impedes on our daily lives and causes havoc. It is more than just rain, but the wind that howls causes the rain to sting our flesh. The lightning strikes fear into our eyes and the thunder roars menacingly into our hearts. Before you know it, the storm has engulfed your life and it seems as if peace was carried away by the gusts that took your hope. The storm is here, and it is not going anywhere anytime soon. The storm has made its presence known and felt. What will you do? While it is difficult to see the storm this way, understand that this is not necessarily a punishment. Not only is God the author of the storm, not only does He control the rain, the wind, the thunder and lightning, but He is going to stand by you in the storm He created. The storm is subject to Him and it only has as much power as He allows. He does not always calm the storm as quickly as we may desire, but He will always stand by your side from the moment the first raindrop hits the dirt.

 

The storm is always difficult to endure. By no means will I attempt to understate the realities of enduring the trials and afflictions brought by the storm, but I will state that it is possible to stand firm. The only way to endure is through prayer and faith. Pray that God will deliver you and believe that He will. Spend time in the Word, and if the pain from the storm causes your tears to stain the pages, know that He distinguishes the tears from the rain, and He holds your tears close to His heart. He is not oblivious to what you are about to have to fight through either, which is why He will be your source of everything you need. Be prepared to fight and endure, and if the storm knocks you to your knees, realize that you are in perfect position to pray. And pray you should, without ceasing (1 Thessalonians 5:17). Pray for strength, pray for courage, pray for hope, pray for peace, pray for discipline, pray for faith, pray for mercy, pray for grace, pray for God to use this storm to glorify Himself. Pray that you will understand the purpose behind the storm and embrace it as grace instead of punishment.

 

The calm after the storm has more importance than we realize. The calm is not just a time to recover, but a time of reflection. Reflect on the events of the past season. What exactly did God just bring you through? Glance into the distance and see the remnants of the storm. Take a deep breath and smell the rain that you withstood. God is just as much the author of the storm as He is the author of the endurance He gave you to weather it. Take time, as much time as you need to reflect on how God just gave you everything you need to endure the storm that you thought could destroy you. Reflect on how you felt when the storm first appeared. Do you remember the chaos that surrounded you? Do you remember the fear that ate away at your heart when you saw the storm? This happened because you took your eyes off Christ. The peace and hope you thought you had was taken away by the wind because any hope and peace outside of Christ withers away and is tossed aside at the moment of affliction. Despite idolatry, God displayed His grace and mercy to you by creating the storm that took that sin away from you. This act of grace cannot be overstated! God allowed the storm because He knew that your attention and affections were elsewhere, and while He is a jealous God, He does not want you to place your affections anywhere else because He knows that road leads to eternal destruction. God will often bring in a storm to wipe the foundations clean because He is trying to get your attention. If you replaced your foundation that was built on Christ with anything else, your foundation will crumble and destroyed. This may be the case for some of us, where we built a foundation of idolatry and sin. And despite this, God still held us together during the storm because of His grace. The ultimate purpose of the storm is not to punish you, but to show you grace. Think about it, if He really wanted to punish you, He would not allow the storm in the first place. He would just let you continue in your sin.

 

This season of reflection may last longer than the storm itself, but this is also the season where the most growth happens. Do not waste this season of your life and do not use it as a time to pity yourself. Get back on your feet and understand that God was sovereign over every drop of rain, over every flash of lightning, and over every gust of wind that carried the roars of the echoing thunder. Rejoice knowing that He was in absolute control. Ultimately, you cannot forget the lessons behind the storm. Use what you learned and apply it everyday for the rest of your life. Everyone of us will go through a different storm and we will have different lessons to learn, but the most important lesson to remember is that He who caused the storm stands with you during the storm and gives you everything you need to endure it. And now, you have true hope and peace because you found them in Christ. This hope and peace does not flee at times of trouble, instead it embraces them times knowing that God is about to display His faithfulness yet again. We do not fear because we know our God is truly a faithful God even when we give Him every reason not to be. Our unfaithfulness to Him has never determined His faithfulness to us. He was faithful before the storm, He was faithful during the storm, and He will remain faithful after the storm.

 

When God Speaks with Silence

When God Speaks with Silence

God’s faithfulness speaks loudest in the silence
Don’t mistake quietness for a lack of guidance
He brought you here without saying a word
Don’t mourn because it’s not what you preferred
God doesn’t have to give you an explanation
Just trust that He’s leading you to your destination
Even in the silence, His hand still remains true
Just as He promised, He will be faithful to you

          A few weeks ago, I began to write poetry with fewer words. When God Speaks with Silence was my first attempt at this. Like all my poems, there is one obvious meaning and there is one hidden meaning. If you reflect on what I write, you may be able to interpret the second meaning. For example, the obvious purpose behind this poem is to remind us that God often speaks with silence. Too often, we believe that His silence is a sign of ignoring our prayer or our cry for help. This is never the case. John Piper famously said that God is always doing 10,000 things in your life and you may be aware of about 3 of them. At every moment of your existence and even before you were even dreamt of by your parents, God was working on your behalf. Each breath you take, and every heartbeat is a sign that God is actively working in your life. When I say God speaks with silence, this is just one way I am referring to. Think of the events of today. God provided you with at least two meals so far, perhaps even three, with more to come, Lord willing. You have a roof over your head right now, access to technology that allows you to read these words from anywhere in the world, and more than likely a job that allowed you to purchase these things. All these things were given to you purely by grace and He did that without saying a word. He just provided because He is good. I certainly know  that I am the sinner of sinners and I do not deserve anything He gave me. Despite that, I still woke up this morning because He chose to wake me up this morning. And you know what? You woke up this morning too. None of us deserved to wake up today. Life today was not promised, and if we are honest with ourselves, He should have killed us yesterday. He would have been just in doing so too. Never forsake or overlook the “lesser things,” but oh how often we make this mistake. Even if today turned out to be the worst day of your life, you still made it through, right? After all, you found yourself on this blog reading what God wanted you to read. You are still alive; therefore He is still working on your behalf!

 

The second meaning, which you may have been able to interpret, is this: be patient while God works. Just as God does not owe you an explanation for the events of your life, He does not owe you a swift response to your prayer (or even a yes for that matter). His display of faithfulness may take time to reach its perfect result. Will you be patient and wait on Him while He is working on your behalf? During my brief life on this earth, I have seen that God often has us wait on many things because He wants us to appreciate what we are asking for in the time we finally receive it, that is, if we receive it at all. Nevertheless, waiting should be expected of Christians. This is a part of our daily walk with Christ. Matthew Henry stated that “those who look for great things from God must be content to wait for them; God’s time is the best time.”

And what are Christians around the world all waiting for? We are waiting for Christ’s glorious return to earth! Come soon, Lord Jesus!  Ponder these verses on waiting on God:

Wait for the Lord; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.            -Psalm 27:14

I waited patiently for the Lord; And He inclined to me and heard my cry. He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. -Psalm 40:1-2

I wait for the Lord, my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope. My soul waits for the Lord. More than the watchmen for the morning; Indeed, more than the watchmen for the morning. -Psalm 130:5-6

God is going to be faithful to you, even if what you are waiting for does not transpire in the way you expected. In fact, more often than not, God’s faithfulness exceeds what you were even asking for in the first place. But even if it does not, if God answers your prayer and breaks your heart in the process, will you still trust Him? There is not a single molecule in this universe that so much as moves without God’s authorization. That is what sovereignty looks like. The same God who authorizes the movement of every single molecule and particle in this vast universe that exceeds human comprehension is working at this very moment on your behalf. If you do not believe me, remember that next time you take a breath. You will have to wait on God even when He is speaking with silence. This was the whole point of my poem. We live in a culture that demands answers loud and quick. As a result of this, we have come to expect God to answer us in this same fashion. When He does not, we lose faith and blame Him for everything. Instead of complaining, ask God to sustain you while you wait. Ask God to grow you while you wait. Ask God for patience and endurance. Just as Christ did in the garden, pray that His will and not yours be done. Pray that God brings things to pass in His perfect timing, not your own.

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

-Philippians 4:6-7

God made many of His people wait for many different things. Noah waited. Abraham waited. Isaac waited. Jacob waited. Joseph waited. The Israelites waited. And we have just approached the end of Genesis and I do not even think I covered everyone who had to wait. Waiting on God tests our faith in God. Waiting on God requires supernatural patience and endurance. He who is making you wait will give you the strength and the patience to wait. Trust His heart. This is all working for your good. Even if it hurts right now, God is still with you and He is still carrying you. God is still leading you and God is still being faithful to you…even in the silence.

Beautiful Diversity

Around 5 months ago, the Lord Jesus brought me to Dallas, Texas, and changed my life forever. At no point in my life have I ever seen God move the way He has since I moved here. While I am certainly not the man I ought to be, I thank Him every day that I am not who I used to be. Whether or not I was genuinely saved before is irrelevant because I no longer dwell on that. I know now where I am in Christ, who I am in Christ, and what I am in Christ. He was so gracious in blessing me with Heritage Grace Community Church and the wonderful brothers and sisters there. Once again, I have found myself in a church where I can grow and experience true fellowship with the body. It reminds me a lot of my church back in Shreveport. A welcoming group of brothers and sisters led by elders who truly love Christ and seek to serve Him every day. I am grateful to be close to home and I definitely miss my family, brothers and sisters, and church there. The good thing about being just a few hours down the road is that I can go home and spend the weekend anytime. And anyone from home can come here and spend the weekend with me. This is such a tremendous blessing and I am so grateful to the Lord for it.

For many years, I always wanted to serve the Lord in some capacity, and He provided me a way to do that with my job. I have the distinct honor and privilege to serve those who serve Christ. I absolutely adore my job, which involves me serving pastors and their wives, ministers of the Gospel, missionaries, nurses, doctors, and countless other professions with people who are serving the Lord on the front lines in some capacity. I look forward to going into work every morning and serving. I have spoken with brothers and sisters from all over the world, on every continent except Antarctica. The people I have the joy of working with are some of the most incredible people I have ever met. They come from all walks of life, but they all have the desire to serve. One of my favorite things about my workplace is the fact that we pray for each other. We pray before meetings, share prayer requests with each other, and discuss Scripture during breaks. I would have never thought a job like this could possibly be real, but here I am, by God’s grace.

The city life has been a difficult but rewarding adjustment. Back home in Shreveport, you can get anywhere in virtually 20 minutes or less. Here in the Dallas/Fort Worth Area, it can take you one hour to get through the city limits of Dallas. For miles and miles and miles, there is highway after highway after highway with thousands of restaurants to choose from. Professional football, hockey, baseball, basketball, soccer, and even lacrosse are within a few miles from where I live. The possibilities here are truly endless. For a time, I thought it would overwhelm me, but again, the Lord helped me adjust to the city very well and I am enjoying my life here. Whatever God has me here for and however long He has me here for, I am looking forward to seeing Him continue to walk with me every step of the way.

One of my favorite things about this city is the diversity. There are millions of people who come from different cultures, nations, languages, creeds, nationalities, you name it. I enjoy grocery shopping because I often run into people from other nations who are speaking a language I am unable to understand, but I certainly enjoy seeing these families here in the United States. Whether they were born here or not, I am encouraged to see so much diversity. Just tonight at Walmart, I probably heard 4-5 languages spoken during my walks up and down the aisles. I also notice during my trips to Walmart that most of the workers are minority as well. I will never forget the first time I came to Walmart after moving here. An Indian man, about 50 years old, was ringing up my items and he and I had a great conversation. He was happy and that happiness gleamed off his face. On my way out, an Arab lady wished me a great evening and I went on my way home.

“After this I looked, and behold, a great multitude that no one could number, from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages, standing before the throne and before the Lamb, clothed in white robes, with palm branches in their hands, and crying out with a loud voice, “Salvation belongs to our God who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb!””

-Revelation 7:9-10

Heritage Grace is also a diverse church. Our body is full of brothers and sisters from many backgrounds and cultures! Being in such a diverse city and a diverse church is a foretaste of what we can expect in heaven! I rejoice in this too! One of the most beautiful aspects of God’s creation is seen through the human beings that were made in His image. There are many shades of skin color, thousands of languages and customs, and millions of various traditions based upon where you are in a particular country. This sort of thing truly brings me an abundance of joy. I have never cared where you came from, only where you are going. We all came from the dirt and our bodies shall return to the dirt, but our souls will either spend eternity with Christ or experience a Christ-less eternity in the torments of hellfire and brimstone.

Unfortunately, the church has many members who hate their brothers and sisters, and even people in general based upon their skin color or even their heritage. I hesitate to even call these individuals Christians. How dare you discriminate or despise someone solely based upon the color of their skin, especially when they are members of the body! What is wrong with you? Heaven is going to be FULL of people from every tribe, tongue, nation, peoples and languages. Ask yourself, how are you going to react to this? You would be in misery! And that is assuming you are there to begin with. Here is what the Lord says:

“We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen. And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother.”

-1 John 4:19-21

This is not meant to condemn anyone. What I am encouraging is for all of us, myself included, to examine ourselves. I believe the key to overcoming racism, prejudice, bigotry, etc., is not through social justice, but through the Gospel of Jesus Christ. The mainstream social justice movement lacks Christ. It is seeking to resolve and remove something resulting from sin without the Savior. Only the blood of Jesus can remove the crimson stain of sin. We can cover the sin up all we want, and we can mask the stench it leaves behind, but the problem is the sin is still there. We will not make the progress we desire if we continue to leave the cross out of the picture. I do not expect the world to usher in Christ and proclaim His Gospel to those who are being impacted by racism or prejudice. Brothers and sisters, this is our duty as followers of Christ. We are to love all people and the best way to do that is to share the Gospel with them.

Embrace the diversity around you because it is a blessing. I see freedom when I see diversity. It truly is a beautiful thing. I enjoy seeing interracial marriages too, or marriages between a man and a woman who come from completely different cultures. These weddings are the best! If you have never been to a wedding with a bride and groom from two different cultures, please do whatever you can to attend one because it will be a very fun night!

Spending eternity with Christ and seeing Him face to face is already a wonderful thought and I genuinely long for that day when I see His face. I also long for that day because racism and this nonsensical hatred of each other because of skin color or nationality is going to be erased and annihilated. We will live in perfect harmony with our brothers and sisters for eternity and we will serve Christ together. I will have the honor of meeting my brothers and sisters who gave their lives for the Gospel in the African safari and in the Amazonian jungle. Regardless of their skin color, they are my brothers and my sisters. Even though I am the only biological child of my parents, I have so many brothers and sisters that their number cannot be counted. I see every single one of them as if we were related by blood because the reality is, we are blood brothers and sisters. We were purchased with the same blood by the same King, and we do not belong to anyone else but Him.

However long the Lord has me here, whether 5 years or 50 years, I am looking forward to what He will do here. I do not know what my future holds, but I certainly do know who holds my future in His hands and I am perfectly content with Him directing my steps and leading me down whatever path He so chooses for me. I do not live in fear of my future any more, there is simply no need. That anxiety did not add an hour to my life and caused more tears than it should have, but it taught me something that I will carry forever and ever: no matter what, trust Christ. He has absolute supremacy over my life and your life and everything in it. This is the reason I can sleep well at night. I know that nothing that comes into my life entered without God’s authorization. And whatever comes to me He will prepare me for and give me the strength to endure. Even if He chose to end my life right now, do not cry for me. He has the right to do that and frankly, He should have killed me yesterday. Every breath I take is a breath I do not deserve. Either way, I sleep well knowing I am in the hands of a sovereign God who saved a wretch like me. Christ has absolute and total supremacy over my life and everything in it and I rejoice knowing that one day I will see Him face to face and I will be with my brothers and sisters enjoying Him forever and ever.

“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.”

-Isaiah 26:3-4

“For the Lord is good; his steadfast love endures forever, and

his faithfulness to all generations.”

-Psalm 100:5

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make

straight your paths.”

-Proverbs 3:5-6